LIFE IS NOT SO SIMPLE..

dulu masa kecik2, my whole world is only between me and my family, friends and school. life is so simple..no worries and all are so beautiful..even my father's dog was not a nuisance to me..
tapi as i grow up, I realize that life is not simple after all. it has so many colours..black, white..so complicated...

Banyak benda yang berlaku di luar jangkaan...

Firstly; kakak..she was my idol. apa saja yang dia buat, dia cakap, dia pakai..smua menjadi ikutan saya. tapi bila dia sudah kawin, ntah kenapa tiba2 saya rasa ada jurang antara kami..saya pun tidak tahu macam mana perasaan tersebut timbul. mungkin juga kerana jarak dan masa yang memisahkan kami. ataupun mungkin kerana I just can't get close to her husband and her kids..I don't know..so sad and frustrating.

Secondly; adik lelaki saya...org yg saya sayang dan orang yang paling merisaukan saya. bila dia kawin, all my worries gone. coz, saya rasa hidup dia sudah sempurna. ada orang urus hidup dia sebaiknya. Wife dia pun okey, bekerja, mesra ngan saya and my family. jadi, hilang satu beban di bahu. tapi....dia pula buat hal. tiba2 mau bercerai la pula. ntah di masa silapnya, saya pun tidak faham. bertambah lagi beban di bahu. kusuty fikiran..!

tidak tahu, bilakah smua ni will back to normal..I just cannot understand why they are so easily made an extreme decision..

walaupun saya sudah ada keluarga sendiri, jauh di sudut hati, saya masih terasa bebanan bila melihat masalah my own sibling yg macam tu..whatever it is, they are blood and flesh right. cubit paha kanan, paha kiri pun sakit juga..

ntahla...saya terlalu emotional kebelakangan ni..so easily feel sad and touched..

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah segala urusan kami..berikan kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan kepada keluarga kami..lindungilah kami semua, lindungilah suamiku dan bayiku..Amin ya Rabbal alamin..

~perut oh perut~

bila baby membesar, prut pun membesar gak..:-)

ramai org ckp prut aku besaaaarrr..mungkin x padan ngan usia baby..

tp whatever it is, smua ni adalah pengalaman indah yg x dapat ditandingi..

pengalaman bergelar bakal ibu membawa seribu bahagia dan makna dalam hidup..

x sdh sabar untuk menunggu kelahiran baby tersayang ni..:-). tp sabar dulu la ya..skang ni nak merakamkan betapa berubahnya diriku yg dulunya kurus kering, skarang ni dah jadi macam ala-ala tong drum..

buktinya:

around 3 month pregnant

(first ever photo of me taken during pregnant)

around 4 month pregnant

at about one week to 5 month preggy

at about 6 month preggy..

skang ni berat dah mencapai 57.5 kg..x pernah bermimpi untuk mjadi seberat ni. coz even if I eat 10 plate of rice, paling berat pun 47.3..that is the maximum weight. Tp it seems so easy to gain weight now :-)..I'm really proud of myself and my weight...peace!

I am now not a 'slightly underweight' person anymore..maybe, now I can be called a 'cute' mama hehehe

~a sweet surprise bday party~

never once in my life my own birthday is celebrated..

but on the 30th of April 2012, someone dear to me made a surprise party for me!

thanks a lot to my dear husband and in-laws..

konon2 la hubby minta maaf coz x dpt buat apa2 fo my bday tp sbenarnya dia secretly planning the bday party for me..so, dats night was really unforgetable..the bday song that they sang still continuously play in my mind :-)

 

 the birthday cake..blueberry cake..

happy birthday jue!



thanks a lot..
it is really nice of you my in-laws n beloved hubby..
thanks a lot..

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